True Test...No Sleep

Day 3:


Wow...what a night! I had every intention of going to bed early last night, but ended up turning everything off at a little before 1am. Then I just laid in bed waiting to fall asleep, but guess what? That didn't happen. I was awake on and off from 1am to 8:30am, then had to be up at 8:45am to get ready for the day. I had to be motivated to get things done.


Let me ask you something. Do you ever feel like Job from the Bible? He loses everything and is tested, yet he still praises God despite all the trials. Last night I felt like Job, like Satan was teasing me with the notion of will she still praise God with the lack of sleep? I wasn't happy, but I continued to get up and ready to serve the Lord. The agenda for today was go to church and help out for 3 hours and then go and hang out with a friend. That was the most productive 3 hours ever and during that time I was able to still worship God with music while I worked. There is so much that goes into getting things ready for Sunday worship and Sunday meetings. My heart enjoys volunteering because I feel if I needed help, someone would be there for me.


So back to the original point of this, being tired, I was definitely tested with feeling negative about myself. But those are the times I have to remember whose child I am. I am God's child. I was made to not be perfect. I was made to strive to be more like Jesus. I was crafted out of the likeness of God, yet I still have to be refined. Isn't Gods refinement process so awesome?


I finally caught up in the readings in John for church. It just amazes me how much God cares for the little guy. Even when we think we are insignificant, like the Samaritan woman, when Jesus was at the well. Instead of acting like a real Jewish man, (because Jews and Samaritans were not supposed to talk to each other) he spoke to her, and even that he asked her for water. But then he even goes beyond that, because He is testing her and then asks for living water. He is the true living water. He can subside all our thirst and all we need to do is believe in Him. Trust in Him and we won't be thirsty anymore. That's a truth we can all live by.


I also just started reading Luke with a friend from North Carolina. God is so amazing to give us people in our lives to share the life of Jesus and encourage us to keep up the faith. :)


The discussion of prayer came up today, and another realization surfaced. That realization was that I don't want to pray with empty words and promises. I want my prayers to mean something. I don't want to talk and ramble. I think that is a reason why I struggle with praying out loud. I also want to start praying at meal times, because I should be thankful for everything God gives me. 


Today I choose to cling to the cross.


Lord,
I thank you for this day. I thank you for everything that today held. I am thankful for the opportunity to serve you today. I am honored to have been able to be the hands and feet of Jesus today. I loved that I was able to spend some time with you while traveling in the car and resting in your presence as I read your word. You will and always amaze me! I praise you for tomorrow, because you know the future and I am excited for it to be revealed. Lastly, I thank you for continuing to be my protector, provider and Savior, without you I would be nothing. I pray all these things in your name.


Amen.