The First Step

Day 2:


They say the first step is the hardest. I would however have to disagree. The hardest part was not moving. It's simply amazing the feeling of moving forward. God is so amazing!


So for my first goal of being less negative. It was hard. Although I was able to recognize when the negative thoughts would pop in my head and try to persuade me that I am not good enough. But God tells me I am good enough! Don't let Satan get a foot hold in your life. Once he is in, its so hard to get rid of him. But remember as I have to also, that God is the light and he always shines and can remove the darkness from our lives.


Today I also read Numbers 8. I am reading Numbers with a friend in Ohio and this week the goal is to read to Chapter 12. I like being accountable to another person. In the end its rewarding because I am learning about God and fighting the complacency at the same time. There is no other way to fight being stagnant than with action!


I feel God moving me. Let me tell you I love that feeling! It has been so long that I have felt a passion in my life. I used to compare myself to myself from last year, and yes, I got jealous. I was jealous from the thought that I was more passionate last year. I had to stop myself in my tracks. I was getting down on myself for God refining me from my old self. Instead I should be looking at all the accomplishments I have completed over the past year. God is so great and as I have said before has blessed me a lot over these past couple years, even including just this month alone.


Prayer is still a struggle for me, but I continue to work on it. I have noticed that I don't really enjoy praying in public, which just means I will have to work on it. 


As I write this post, something has come back into my life, it's been missing for awhile, it's my smile and my laugh. :D


Lord,
I praise you for today. I praise you that you live in me. I praise you for being the light in my life. Thank you for giving me guidance while I studied today. Thank you for never giving up on me. I pray that those who are lost will be renewed in your Spirit. I was once lost, but now I am found. You are my Father and I am thankful every day that you welcome me with open arms. Jesus you are my one true love. I pray that all those who are searching, find rest in you, today, tomorrow, or tonight. I pray all of these things in your name.


Amen.