So-So

Day 16:


If there was a better way to describe the day. "So-so" would have to be it. I had a bad night, well not exactly bad, but I was awaken at 5am and 6am. I am so glad I am not working tonight.


Today, and yesterday I had late starts at studying. Boy, do I hate when my mornings are thrown off. Today I could tell I would be especially lazy, just because of my night last night. I fought it off, showered and headed out the door by a little after 1pm. Arrived at Arby's by 1:30pm and studied till 5pm. Even then I was so discouraged and didn't want to study.


I even described my study time today as going to the dentist and getting teeth pulled with no pain medications. If you know me I hate the dentist. It was a very hard day for studying. But I pressed on and was able to get all of Chapter 9 completed.


Here I am sitting on my bed as I type this, and am surrounded by a mess. Like my room and my studies today, I don't want to do anything. I hope I can overcome this funk so I can wake up tomorrow.


I don't know what is going on. I feel somewhat like the calm before the storm, let's hope that is false. I would hate to lose it the rest of this week. I usually can't control those types of emotions once they are unleashed. 


I apologize that this post is a little down-casted. I'm tired and just feeling not so positive tonight. I really hope this changes. I know God will be there to lift my spirits. He is stronger when we are weak. He loves us and gives us hope and encouragement. With just writing this statement, God sent me a smile. How I love God-filled surprises.


Even with despair and darkness, God always brings hope and the light to shine through any darkness. I will always lean on that truth, that God never gives up and wants to see his children happy.


Lord,
I praise you for this day. Thank you for showing me the light at the end of the tunnel. You are always so good to me, even when I am having a bad day. Thank you for giving me the strength to study today, and to fight the battles of discouragement. I am so happy that you are there for me, and stay beside me and want the best for me, including my happiness. I pray for my friends health and that they continue to stay encouraged the rest of the week in their jobs or at school. Thank you again for them. I pray all these things in your name.


Amen.