Disconnected...

Some thoughts on giving facebook up till Easter and it hasn't even been two weeks of being disconnected. Lessons I should have learned before now, but God has finally shed some light on. How when you aren't on facebook in awhile, a couple things happen, 1: you aren't told what is going on (it's just assumed you know), 2: most of who you thought were your friends stop talking to you. If you aren't on facebook, its like you are dead to the world. I guess that's cool. Even people who I regarded as "best" friends, won't call or text, or return calls or texts.


I don't know if God is giving me this opportunity to examine my friendships, but it kinda seems that way, besides the point of spending more time with Him. It just makes me thing why I have certain friends if they can't communicate with me. 


Satan lately has been filling my head with these thoughts and its hard not to listen when truly some friends won't make that extra step towards communicating with me outside of facebook. The thoughts are as follows; 1: "You take too much energy to be friends with." Meaning: I'm too high maintenance to be someones friend. 2: "Can't you see that no one loves you; their actions prove enough." There are others but its hard to put into words.


I feel number one a lot, because I put in a lot of effort to be someones friend, but I don't see the effort in theirs. The hardest thing right now is deciding who to invest in or keep my investments in, and possibly pulling some investments out. I know with prayer God will give me the answers.


I am getting to the point where I am tired being the only one that tries, or feeling like I am. I am only speaking for myself and not the other person here, (obviously I can't read minds.) I am tired of calling and texting and getting nothing in reply. It is very frustrating. I am even giving up the opportunity to take cheap plane tickets and go anywhere on the east coast, well I possibly may use them to go to Florida, but plans aren't definite. I am not putting my hope in that. 


That's the other wisdom that God has showed me. I put so much hope and excitement into the possible interactions with my friends. I see in most situations it leads to much disappointment and sadness. Why would I put myself through this time and time again? Because I am the kind of person who tries to forgive in hopes that one day the other person will value our friendship as much as I do. I am trying to lean on God's truth and ask for strength because being rejected is a hard emotion to swallow. Now I know I can never know how Jesus felt exactly with being rejected by so many people he was trying to reach, but now I have somewhat of an idea. It hurts, and is not a pleasant experience.


Today I received an email from a friend and inside she talked about friends and included this forward. 

Why do I have a variety of friends who are all so different in character? How can I get along with them all? I think that each one helps to bring out a "different" part of me.
 With one of them I am polite. I joke with another friend.
 I sit down and talk about serious matters with one. With another I laugh a lot. I listen to one friend's problems. Then I listen to another one's advice for me.
 My friends are all like pieces of a jigsaw puzzle. When completed, they form a treasure box. A treasure of friends! They are my friends who understand me better than myself, who support me through good days and bad days. We all pray together and for each other.
 Real Age doctors tell us that friends are good for our health. Dr. Oz calls them Vitamins F (for Friends) and counts the benefits of friends as essential to our wellbeing. Research shows that people in strong social circles have less risk of depression and terminal strokes. If you enjoy Vitamins F constantly you can be up to 30 years younger than your real age. The warmth of friendship stops stress and even in your most intense moments it decreases the chance of a cardiac arrest or stroke by 50%.
 I'm so happy that I have a stock of Vitamins F!
 In summary, we should value our friends and keep in touch with them. We should try to see the funny side of things and laugh together, and pray for each other in the tough moments.

I thought it was very fitting for this post. I thank God for the friends He has given me and I am thankful for the opportunity to have the distinction of which ones are weeds and the others beautiful flowers. God made all and I am thankful for both types of friends. But if the master Gardener says its time to "weed", then as his servant gardener, then I will listen and obey.