Drifting

As I drift off to sleep last night I find several images come into view. These thoughts cross my mind.


Let me set the scene...


I am sitting on a flat mountain top enjoying the view. Then I stand up to feel the wind in my hair. I'm half way to the edge and the view is the most beautiful scene I have ever seen. Blue skies and red rock as far as the eye can see, and I can feel the sun heating my skin. Now imagine this, God is on one side talking to me persuading me to go away from the ledge and on the other side Satan is trying his best to talk me to get closer to the edge. I can not visually see these two spirits, but can feel them battling for my soul. 


Sunday night as I was returning home from life group I had an encounter. It was the kind of encounter not of God and I started to proclaim the name of Jesus in my car. Praying and declaring that Satan had no authority over me and anything in my mind. For me to recognize this attack, takes a lot because Satan is good at being camouflaged.


The past few days I have taken a lighter approach to battle the demons, which I find has not been a good idea. The thing that I can't seem to abolish are the images that start off innocent but develop into something much worse. It's astounding to how Satan can influence our thoughts and take over one instance and change it to something one-hundred and eighty degrees different.The images are graphic and will get no more explanation than that. 


Other than that, I want to touch on some happier notes. Today I drove to Kalamazoo, to visit friends, but one in particular who was visiting from Japan. I hadn't seen her in two-plus years. It was good to catch up and have a mini reunion with friends from the past. I had a good time with some new people and even took a small adventure. I have missed my friends. As stated in an earlier post, it is hard to be transitioning out of old relationships and into new ones. Sometimes new relationships do not come and then where does it leave the person. It leaves them waiting and searching for new beginnings.


There is so much that I know, but can't help it to fall in the same circle of repeating hurts. Today I hear myself say the same words over again. I feel stuck. I know that I will be okay. God is with me always, even when Satan is spreading lies. 


If you are where I am, I encourage you to talk to someone who knows Christ. He is the only one that can fill the void and love you unconditionally. I know I am drifting in and out but it only takes one person to redirect my thoughts, and life back on my true love, Jesus. He is my redeemer, protector, and warrior of my battles with Satan.


I hope whomever reads this stays encouraged. You are not alone. There are others out there that struggle just like you do. Stay encouraged and don't give in to the lies. May God be with you in your battles against the evil one.