Hitting Rock Bottom Again

The above music video talks about not being strong enough but God is strong enough. Learning to trust in this is so hard for me. I always feel that I have to be strong for both God and me, but that's a lot to put on one person, and God is stronger than any person, He did create the universe. 


Lately I have been feeling like I have been hitting rock bottom again. I am so conflicted to say this after God has blessed me so much with my internships and now that I will be graduating in December. Life is not easy and I can't count on one hand where I believe that all is right in the world.


This post, I just want to touch on how Satan can influence a person's thoughts. So many questions pop up as you can imagine. I don't understand either. Satan has been playing with my head. I am confused. A good descriptor is the word, cloudy. Satan has been filling my head with thoughts and not positive ones. I have found that transitions are a place where Satan tries and persuade me out of anything he feels necessary. 


Right now, I am dealing with a lot of emotions. I am very anxious and stressed. I am restless. I am angry. I am tired. I want to run away. I am happy. I am sad. I am confused. I am hurting. I feel guilty and lost.


October 9th 2011 was my 3 year recognition of me getting baptized, such a step of faith. I was so excited to share this day with my friends. I went and saw the movie Courageous with my friend, Jessie. It was so good recommend seeing it and take your friends and family.


Lessons I have learned from being in "rock bottom" (and need to be reminded of. Thank you to my friend K.C for the gentle reminder.):

• Be accountable to others. We were meant to be in fellowship with others. Lean on them and stop isolating yourself. 
• Stop blaming yourself. Take responsibility for your own actions and not those of others.
• You can be a leader in your own actions, but others have to make their own choices.
• Pray, Pray and  PRAY!
• Read the Bible daily! 
• Be encouraged and stay encouraged. God will help you win the fight against Satan!