I have been reading a book called, "Waking the Dead: The Glory of a Heart Fully Alive" by John Eldredge throughout the summer along with my life group. There has been a lot of changes this year alone. Changes in leadership. Changes in meeting location. Changes in who God has brought to the group.
God is definitely in the business of teaching lessons and I am definitely in the middle of learning one. I don't know about the rest of my group members, but I hope they have been listening.
I found the last 2 chapters in the book really interesting. Obviously the chapters were written before any of the group stuff had happened, but it seemed to me that it was written about what has been going on the last few months. Crazy how God connects pieces of information and experiences. I just simply love when I can connect the dots as well.
During reading in Chapter 11, titled "Fellowships of the Heart," I found this really interesting especially with the group dynamics currently. The group should offer the stream of Counseling to one another, but we can’t unless we truly know one another and know their stories. This is what I have been searching for, or at least trying to create in a group of people. This is what I would like a fellowship group I want to be in do; hear each other’s stories, discover each other’s glories, learn to walk with God together, pray for each other’s healing, and cover each other’s back. The little fellowships or communities mean sharing life. They also worship together, eat together, pray for one another, go on quests together, and hang out together, in each other’s homes.
When I was reading the last two chapters I found it comical because I have already had to endure some of the things the author was talking about, such as fighting for the community or life group. It talks about, “you’ll fight to get one, and you’ll fight to keep it afloat. But you fight for it as you bail out a life raft during a storm at sea. You want this thing to work, and you need it to work…. Without it you’ll go down. Or back to captivity.” These words hit home. I have been there the last 8 months and I continue to fight for this group. It helps to have conversations with God and friends to encourage me, but I am also finding I cannot be the only one to fight. I need others to say this is important too. Or let’s just get out the life raft….
This girl is frustrated. Still trying to work through the frustration and to better hear on what God wants me to do. I know God still has plans for this group or people in the group. Its not finished or I think I would have less trouble walking away. I have told my group 2 weeks ago that I was taking a break from the leadership responsibilities and find myself struggling to actually take a break. How weird is that? It's hard after being so involved over a long period of time.
I am confused on why I have such a passion for this group, but its apparent that no one else shares this passion. It makes me sad, because I believe that this group will dissolve. So in reality what was the point in fighting? I hope sometime soon, God reveals the turning point in all of this tribulation because I would really like to know why this is happening.
If you are able, please pray for this group of people and for protection against spiritual warfare. I truly believe that satan is at work here and is dividing the group or even causing some people to turn away. God has plans and satan does not want anything good to come out of this group. And pray whatever ends up happening that God's will be done, and that He will be glorified in the end.
Thank you!
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