Following Him, Not Me

I haven't written in quite awhile. Well lots have happened, two weddings, test results, friends moved away, and God has spoken to me in all of that.


Big Lesson I am learning, change happens, and accepting the change and being patient through it is a tough process.


So God has been teaching me a lot. It's not that I haven't been listening its just I don't understand what He is trying to say until two weeks after the event.


It was June 23rd, and I got the results to my test through the mail. It was not happy news, and I was pretty upset. But later God shares with me that I wasn't relying on Him. I placed all my faith in the test because I was hoping that if I passed, I would be on my way out on my own with a new job, and a new home, and a new car. But God had different plans. A teaching moment. I need to rely on God, because he has everything planned out. But you know what? That is so hard to give Him full control.


The next hardest thing I have been going through, is that one of my best friends got married and then moved away to another state. I have never really experienced a super close friend moving away. Let me tell you, it is seriously the most emotional yet most growth I have been experiencing. The worst part is that there is hardly any communication and I am driven on talking to this person. I feel though that two weeks prior to the wedding, we communicated much less than normal, and I believe that this was God preparing me for the change that was coming. But of course I didn't see it. Not till a few weeks later and things became significantly clearer. I still don't understand what is going on, the changes that have to happen, to make us both stronger individuals. God has been teaching me patience throughout this whole situation, and He continues to give me support. I remember this conversation I had with my friend several weeks before the wedding. Something God told me through a silent conversation, that distance may become me and my friend, but she will always be my friend. I guess when I had this feeling, I didn't truly understand how hard it would be.


I am so thankful that God promises us that He will never leave us or forsake us. I continue to learn that through these situations that even though He gives us friends, He is the ultimate comforter and FRIEND!!!


Through everything, I ultimately learn that I haven't been trusting Him, following Him, loving Him. Such powerful realizations that I continue to work on. I am not perfect, but I love a perfect God.


Well for now I continue to ponder the rest of what God has been teaching me and will update again soon. Thanks for reading.